Seemingly benign things- a Kawhi Leonard article in SI, kingtut19888 login popping up when I restart my/his computer, a pocket sized 2106 calendar, a commercial I know he will never see- these things start my heart to aching, but I don't stay there too long. I can't. Maybe I should?
We are coming up on three years on February 2. Goddamn suicide.
Some rays of light poke through. Receiving a grant to run a children's grief camp again, planning a trip to Florida, losing myself in another good book.
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It's odd how I kind of forget he's not here and something comes up and I think, "I'll ask Adam about that" and then it all comes back. Smaller waves maybe, but still enough to make me feel weak at the knees or flip my stomach.
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